I turned down a date last night.

Sure, I wanted to have some company for a Saturday night. Who doesn't? But I have to be honest and true with others about these things and she was not really up to my standard (unemployed and didn't really appeal to me physically). She seemed bright, interesting and articulate, but with no attraction, I just didn't want to end up paying for a night out with her. I'll save my pennies for someone who interests me.

So I simply told her I had another opportunity and wished her well on the job search... Sure, that's a white lie, but telling someone you don't want to go out because you find them unappealing seems a little harsh. But I need to learn to at least expect some physical chemistry. I've tried to make things work on the appeal of the more logical elements (showing I live in my head too much) like charm or brains or even "I shouldn't be so shallow, looks aren't everything!" That doesn't work. On the other hand, it's easy to fall into the shallow, materialistic trap of needing to have a glamorous bit of eye candy where the other elements are lacking.

Man, I think too much!

CDs listened to today:

• Hebert Vazquez: String Quartet No. 1
• The Clash: Sandinista