CDs listened to today:

• David Maslanka: Symphony No. 7
• Ludwig van Beethoven: The Symphonies, disk 4 (Sir Roger Norrington conducting)
• Ben Folds Five: Whatever and Ever Amen
• Tom Scott: Bebop United
• John Cage: Thirteen
• My Morning Jacket: Z
• Jawbox: For Your Own Special Sweetheart
• Jesus Guridi: Sinfonia Pirenaica

CDs listened to today:

• Alban Berg: Lulu Suite
• Bela Bartok: Concerto for Violin No. 2
• Nick Cave: Nocturama

CDs listened to today:

• Bill Watrous: A Time For Love
• Dafnis Prieto: Absolute Quintet
• François-Bernard Mache: Andromède
• Dave Holland: Seeds Of Time
• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 2, "Cello"
• Alban Berg: Lulu Suite
• Samba Mapalanga: Ujumbe
  

CDs listened to today:

• Talking Heads: Remain In Light
• The Annuals: Be He Me
• Arnold Schoenberg: Verklärte Nacht (Juilliard Quartet)
• Various Artists: Jump 'N' Jive
• Hebert Vazquez: String Quartet No. 1
• Alban Berg: Lulu Suite
• Igor Stravinsky: Pulcinella
  

CDs listened to today:

• Oliver Messiaen Saint François d'Assise
• Sergei Prokofiev: Sonata for Piano Nos. 1-5
  

CDs listened to today:

• Charles Tolliver Big Band: With Love
• Olivier Messiaen: Catalogue d'Oiseaux, disk 2 (Hakan Austbo, piano)
• Tom Scott & The LA Express: Tom Cat

CDs listened to today:

• Victor Ewald: Quintet No. 3
• Milli Vanilli: Girl You Know It's True
• Johan de Meij: T-bone Concerto
• Charles Ives: Symphony: New England Holidays
• Liz Phair: Exile In Guyville

CDs listened to today:

• Ludwig van Beethoven: The Symphonies, disk 3 (Sir Roger Norrington conducting)
• Fishbone: The Realities Of My Surroundings
• David Maslanka: Symphony No. 7
• John Cage: Sonatas and Interludes for Prepared Piano
• Javanese Court Gamelan: (eponymous)
• Alban Berg: Lulu Suite
• Tom Scott: Bebop United
  

CDs listened to today:

• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 4
• Dafnis Prieto: Absolute Quintet
• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 2, "Cello"
• Samba Mapalanga: Ujumbe
• Bela Bartok: Concerto for Viola and Orchestra
• Alban Berg: Lulu Suite
• Neko Case: The Tigers Have Spoken.
• My Morning Jacket: Z
• Dave Holland: Seeds Of Time
  

CDs listened to today:

• Olivier Messiaen: Saint François d'Assise
• The Annuals: Be He Me
• Igor Stravinsky: Orpheus
• Bill Watrous: Space Available
• Hebert Vazquez: String Quartet No. 1
  

CDs listened to today:

• Various Artists: The Jackal
  

Today is one of the hardest days of my adult life.

I had to break things off with A. It's been a very hard decision to make, given all her good qualities, but the foundations of our relationship are far from solid. Given the deliberations, I have a very clear set of reasons, but I can't share them. She didn't ask me about why, so I don't get to tell anybody about how this relationship has failed to fulfill me. Dumping her without a clearly articulated reason seems heartless and callous. I suppose what would be truly heartless and callous would be announcing our issues to anybody but her.

So I'm miserable in silence. It's really not right, in my view, to whine about feeling this way when I'm the one who chose to break things off. I already miss her terribly, but this was the right decision. I've never felt so cruel in my life.


CDs listened to today:

• Save Ferris: It Means Everything
• Charles Tolliver Big Band: With Love
• John Prescott: Suite for Alto Trombone
• Talking Heads: Naked
• Arnold Schoenberg: Suite for Piano
  

CDs listened to today:

• Charles Ives: Symphony No. 4 (Michael Tilson-Thomas conducting)
• Tom Petty: Greatest Hits
• Johan de Meij: T-bone Concerto
• Olivier Messiaen: Catalogue d'Oiseaux, disk 2 (Hakan Austbo, piano)

CDs listened to today:

• Milt Jackson and Wes Montgomery: Bags Meets Wes!
• David Maslanka: Symphony No. 7
• Alvin Etler: Concerto for Violin and Wind Quintet
• Ron Miles: My Cruel Heart
• Tom Scott: Bebop United
• Samba Mapalanga: Ujumbe
  

CDs listened to today:

• The Cardigans: First Band On The Moon
• Rami Levin: Anima/Breath Of Life
• Ludwig van Beethoven: The Symphonies, disk 2 (Sir Roger Norrington conducting)
• Fishbone: Truth And Soul
• Dave Holland: Seeds Of Time
• Samba Mapalanga: Ujumbe
• John Cage: Solo for Sliding Trombone
  

CDs listened to today:

• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 1 (Three Movements for Orchestra)
• Arthur Blythe: Lenox Avenue Breakdown
• Hebert Vazquez: String Quartet No. 1
• Dafnis Prieto: Absolute Quintet
• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 2, "Cello"
• Samba Mapalanga: Ujumbe
• Bela Bartok: Concerto for Piano, No. 2 (Sviatislov Richter, soloist)
  

CDs listened to today:

• Olivier Messiaen: Saint François d'Assise
• Bill Watrous: Bone-ified
• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 2, "Cello"
• The Annuals: Be He Me
  

CDs listened to today:

• Francis Poulenc: Stabat Mater
• Tackhead: Friendly as a Hand Grenade
• Charles Tolliver Big Band: With Love
• Arnold Schoenberg: Suite
• Various Artists: Hurricane Zouk
• Dafnis Prieto: Absolute Quintet
• Igor Stravinsky: Oedipus Rex
• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 2, "Cello"

CDs listened to today:

• Charles Ives: Symphony No. 4 (Seiji Ozawa conducting)
• The Persuasions: Street Corner Symphony
• Tom Scott: Bebop United
• Peter Mennin: Symphony No. 7
• Royal Crescent Mob: Spin The World
• Dafnis Prieto: Absolute Quintet
• Johan de Meij: T-bone Concerto
• Ellen Taaffe Zwilich: Symphony No. 2, "Cello"

A had a recurrence of the same health problem from last December and nearly died last night. Even her own family has mentioned frustration with her that she hasn't followed the regime that would keep her healthy. Just like last time, I was trying to coordinate help for her, despite her resistance. Today, she is safe at the hospital and my role is to try and be the good boyfriend and support her. Still, how many times will this have to happen before she dies or realizes she needs to take care of herself?

CDs listened to today:

• The Mighty Mighty Bosstones: Let's Face It
• David Maslanka: Symphony No. 7